Tuesday, August 4, 2009

The Verdict is In!!

Well after almost 7 years of living in our home and dreaming of oneday adding on some more living space to make it perfect...we decided to get an architect's professional opinion on the matter. And he did. And it's not what I wanted to hear. He came to our house and drew things on graph paper and measured...he listened to Kevin and I describe to him the perfect new master suite...I felt like we were on an HGTV show!! Then a month later, after he had time to research covenants, easement lines, utility lines, planning commission bumble jumble....it won't work. At first I was ok with all of this. "At least we know" is the phrase that kept coming to mind....but now the realization of that dream never coming to life has made me very heartbroken. I love our house....most of the time. You see, I want a home that has 4 bedrooms. I want my girls to have their own space...because that's what they really want. And when looking ahead to the future...I want them to be excited to come home when they are in college, etc. I suppose the logical thing to do is to sell our house and find the perfect home....and I have. It's actually in our neighborhood a couple of streets over and it's empty!! However, I am afraid by the time I convince Kevin we should sell...someone will already have snatched it!! Moving is alot of work....I've done it quite a bit since we've been married. But everytime we've moved, it's been a cleansing process. We've purged junk, thrown away stuff that needed to be thrown, had garage sales, and taken stuff to Goodwill by the truckloads. That's the work part of moving...but after the move has taken place and the last box unpacked, there's always this sense of everything being clean and fresh!!!! That's the best feeling after moving!!!
I feel this sense of urgency that we need to do something soon like today. I think that's called an anxiety disorder...and that's where Kevin gets completely out of sorts with me. He is so laid back and relaxed and I'm so NOT!!! Perhaps, God is continueing to do a work in me....and I know He has his hands full with me!!
Anyway, I know this story isn't finished yet. Kevin and I have alot to think about and alot to talk about. We seem to process at different speeds....which is kind of frustrating....but good in the longterm. So, as we continue this new little journey called the future....I'll keep praying for God's wisdom!!